Please tell me I’m not the only one who does this…
Do you ever come home from a social gathering, you were trying so hard to fit in and be a grown-up with grown-up friends; and as you are thinking over the event and conversations that were had, do you ever find yourself physically cringing from something you said? Like, you’re just going about your business, happily washing the make-up off your face, humming a tune and then find your face mashed up in a grimace because you said something stupid?
And not only that, you find yourself obsessing over it for hours! You try to distract yourself, honestly and truly you try, but the memory creeps in and haunts everything.
“How could you do that?” you think, “You made the whole room uncomfortable, that was so stupid…”
And it doesn’t go away. It takes the whole day just for you to recover from the awkward embarrassment of putting yourself out there.
With me, I tend to obsess over the question, “Am I just too weird? Is that why I always stick my foot in my mouth like this?”
Does it ever end? Do we ever reach a point where we don’t say stupid, weird things that make people question your sanity?
Yes, I am being melodramatic, but I’m struggling here, someone help!
My name is Melanie, I’m socially awkward and can’t seem to forgive myself for it.